What would have
happened if Mary had said no?
It is really
tempting to create a picture in which Mary is just waiting around for Gabriel
to show up. It’s really tempting to create a picture in which it made all the
sense in the world for Mary to say yes, to tie up the whole 4th
Sunday of advent and Nativity all into one story that make sense.
But it seems
like there would have been many good reasons to say no.
Mary could have
said, “I’m busy.”
She could have
said, “But I’m too young.”
She could have said,
“But I have no idea how to do this.”
She could have
said, “This is too much change. I don’t want to change.”
Mary could have
given God all of the excuses that we give God when we are asked to bear the
light of Christ into the world. Because sometimes it’s easier to say no to God
than it is to live into what God calls us. Because trusting and depending on
God, even if we know all the right words, even if we know when to say them, are
really difficult. It is difficult to allow God to pry our lives, our loved ones
and all of the things we try to trust instead of God out of our clenched fists.
Gabriel comes to
Mary and tells her that she is favored. And Mary is confused. Maybe she was
trying to think through all the things that she had done earlier in that day,
wondering if she had eaten some bad lentils; maybe she was trying to figure out
how she could be favored because she knew that she hadn’t done anything to earn
such favor. But wait, it gets weirder: then Gabriel tells Mary that she is
going to conceive a child and that he will sit on the throne of David that
hasn’t had anyone sitting on it for four hundred years. The last time a king
was promised that his offspring would be on the throne forever, it turned out
to be not quite true. Judah was conquered by the Babylonians, and the
Babylonians were conquered by the Persians, and the Persians were conquered by
the Romans, and the Romans were quick to depose pretender-kings and rebellions
in their regions. It all sounds impossible. It all sounds really unbelievable.
But how often,
when we’re invited to believe the impossible, do we balk and try to make sense
of it and try to rationalize and try to figure out just how everything is going
to work out, with our neat little spreadsheets and lists of pros and cons,
trying to make sense of this God who shows up in the unlikeliest of places –
the womb of an unmarried teenage girl, in the womb of an aged barren woman –
and breathes possibility into our protests of impossibility.
“For nothing
will be impossible with God.”
Gabriel gives
Mary no guarantees: he doesn’t guarantee that she will be safe, he doesn’t
safeguard her against morning sickness or swollen ankles or the curious stares
of onlookers at the marketplace who notice her swelling belly. “We all know where
babies come from, Mary.”
“Let it be with
me according to your word,” is Mary’s yes, but her yes is also a confession: it
is a confession of belief in the God who is in the habit of doing impossible
things.
So… what is God
drawing you into?
Sometimes, it’s
a lot easier to see God moving through other people’s lives – through Bible
characters, through people who seem more faithful, more prayerful, more able
than us. So we are sideswiped when we realize that we all have calls.
After Gabriel
leaves Mary, she leaves with haste to go to Elizabeth. Luke doesn’t tell us why
she does so: maybe she was seeking the wisdom of an older relative; maybe she
wanted to spend time with another woman going through pregnancy for the first
time; maybe, knowing that the punishment for infidelity was public stoning and
the assumptions people would make, Mary went to Elizabeth because she couldn’t
figure out where else to go. Even when we are confident that we are doing what
God wants us to be doing, sometimes it’s incredibly scary. It takes the dreams
and the things we imagined for our lives and sets them a little off kilter.
We tend to paint
a picture of Mary as a confident young woman, and on some days, she probably
was. But I cannot help but wonder if, as though just realizing the weight of it
all, of realizing the responsibility, of realizing the danger, of realizing
that she wasn’t sure she could do all of this as the height of morning sickness
was beginning, Mary left town hastily because she swore to herself a long time
ago she’d never let these people see her cry. It couldn’t have been real, could
it? Why her, of all people? Why this baby? Why now? Even though Mary was
favored by God, this favor wouldn’t spare her the stares or the clucking
tongues or the judgment. So Mary walks the 100 miles to Elizabeth’s, her face
stained with dust and tears, her clothes dusty from the journey. I imagine her
wiping off her face, trying to hide her fears with the confidence in her voice:
“Hello? Is anybody home? It’s Ma…”
Elizabeth,
meanwhile, has been in seclusion with a silent husband for the past six months.
The child in her womb has likely heard no voices besides his mother’s, and
leaps for joy at the sound of Mary’s voice. And Elizabeth doesn’t ask Mary any
questions, she doesn’t stop for a moment. I imagine her not even waiting for
Mary to finish her greeting. “Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the
fruit of your womb… and blessed is she who believed the fulfillment of what was
spoken to her by the LORD.” It was
true. It was real.
Mary doesn’t
sing the Magnificat when Gabriel tells her she is favored. She doesn’t sing
when Gabriel tells her that her son is going to bear the heir to the throne of
David. She sings the Magnificat after Elizabeth blesses her. Through Mary’s
yes, the world is turned upside down:
You have cast
the mighty down from their thrones,
And uplifted the
humiliated.
You have filled
the hungry with good things,
And sent the
wealthy away empty.
You have kept
your promises.
It is tempting
to say “No” to God because we are afraid that God’s promises aren’t true. It is
tempting to say no because we realize how difficult life is when we let go of
the illusion of control. It is tempting to say no because we aren’t a people
who believe in impossible things. Far too intelligent and far too rational, we
respond to Mary “We all know where babies come from, Mary.”
But what would
the world look like if we said yes? What would it look like for us to confess
that God is in the habit of doing impossible things? What would it look like if
we believed – really believed – that a helpless infant could save the world?
What would it look like if, for just a minute, we put down our lists of pros
and cons and our reasonings and all the things that we cling to to make sense of
our lives, and lived into the reality that God is calling each of you to do the
impossible?
“For nothing
will be impossible with God.”
After over 400
years with no king on the throne of David, Gabriel is sent to a young woman,
who said yes. Yes to the God who breathes possibility into all of our protests
of impossibility. Yes to the God who was not content to remain distant from
you, but chose to come and dwell among you, even as Christ comes to you now,
inviting you to watch and wait for the God in and through whom nothing is
impossible.
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